"MABOROSHI NO KUNI" ~ Chapter 1: atarashi monogatari [rekishi no hajimari]

<< Sunday, October 10, 2004 >>

BGM: Angel of Mine - Monica

I am excited... no, not just excited, but I am over excited. Thanks to 'someone' for giving me Andrei Aksana's autograph. You know who you are, girl. I just can't stop myself from thanking her that she sent me Andrei Aksana's autograph. I never thought I would have his autograph... it felt like miracle when I saw his autograph for me. *tears of joy* Speaking of Andrei Aksana... er, I think I have already had some kind of 'developed feeling' for him now. This is dangeroussssss!! Have to stop myself from doing some embarassing things.

I think I am going to buy Hero Vision volume 16. After reading the information about that mook here, I immediately decided I am going to buy this mook. There are a lot of interesting pictures on this 16th edition... a poster of Houjou Takahiro [yay, my beloved little brother!! *gets smacked by Houjou Takahiro*], conversation between Hayashi Tsuyoshi and Yoshida Yuichi, and many more. It has Handa Kento-related-pages too... I have more than two reasons to buy that mook, ne? Hero Vision volume 16 will be officially released on October 23rd. ^______^

Went to a cassette shop yesterday and saw lots of cassette and CD I want to have. I wanted to buy Beyonce Knowles debut album [haven't bought it yet - although it was officially released last year], Gareth Gates' first album [I just want to listen to the song Anyone of Us (Stupid Mistake)], The Calling's second album, The Corrs' newest album, and Vanessa Mae's newest album. I really had to restrain myself from buying the cassettes and CDs. ^^;;;

I am writing a new story in a world of illusions at 05:01 pm

<< Sunday, August 22, 2004 >>

BGM: I For You - Luna Sea

I think I really have to admit that... I am in love with someone right now. *massive sweatdrops* This is not a blessing for me, though. Honestly, I do consider that falling in love with someone is a disaster for me... you know, I have to prepare myself before I breakdown and cry again. I know I have a point here, right? Geez, that is the reason why I don't want to fall in love with anyone if it is possible. I don't think I am prepared to breakdown and cry in a relationship. Everytime I think about the result of a relationship, I can feel the fear which conquers my heart... ^^;;; ...argh, can't I have a relationship which only has a happy ending and not a sad ending? I know I sound very very selfish but after having so many hard times in my life, I think it is pretty normal that I want a happy ending. At least I can live happily ever after with the person I am in love with... getting married with that person is another business. *thinks* But I don't think I can get married with the person I am in love with. If I got married with that person, the society would definetely kick our asses at the first place.

Oh, let's stop talking about marriage... that word always makes me tremble everytime I hear it. I don't want to think about it at least for now. All I want to think is... the person I am in love with now!! *gets bricked and smacked* Yeah, I am deeply in love with someone right now and I can't stop myself from typing some romantic [and stupid and useless] SMS-es everytime I sit at the office. I never send those short messages, only save them in my cellphone's archive. I wish I could have the chance to send those messages to the person I am in love with... but that is impossible because I don't know that person's cellphone number. I am very positive that I won't be able to get that person's number forever and ever. I don't want to sound pessimist but that is the fact I have to face. Only a miracle can bring me that person's cellphone number but a miracle rarely happens these days, especially in my pathetic life. ^^;;;

Okay, let's move on with the topic... I am now in love with a novel!! Can you believe it? In love with a novel... I think I am the craziest people alive now. *massive sweatdrops* I am in love with Lelaki Terindah, a novel written by Andrei Aksana. It is a gay novel!! Some people even consider "Lelaki Terindah" as the first Indonesian gay novel. Forget about people's opinions... I want to talk about my own opinion here. The novel itself is pure brilliant. The writer really knows how to play with the readers' emotions with the conversations and descriptions. I fell in love in an instant after reading some pages of the novel. The story is so romantic... too bad it has a sad ending. If only it had a good ending. *starts dreaming* I fell in love with the main characters, Rafky dan Valent, also in an instant. I think they would have a good ending if the society wasn't against them. In almost every case of gay relationship, the first enemy of the couples is the society. Sometimes the main reason why the couples break up is the society itself... it sounds very unfair, ne? If two people who have same gender are in love with each other, they deserve for their happiness like normal people. Society doesn't have any right to confront them... all they want is happiness. Why can't they have their own happiness? They are human beings too... the only thing which makes them different is their sexual preference. Other than that, they don't have other differences. Although there is a fact like that, why can't the community accept them as a part of it?

After reading Andrei Aksana's 4th novel, I have the interest to collect all novels written by him. It sounds like an obsession, ne? Right, absolutely right... I am obsessed with Andrei Aksana's writings now. His writings are so ME!! ^^ And I wish I could have a chance to meet Andrei Aksana face to face someday... it must be very interesting to meet my favorite writer face to face, ne?

My orders have finally arrived!! Books and CDs!! After waiting for almost two weeks, they are here now... *jumps up and down* ...finally I have my own copy of Kamen Rider 555 Chouzenshuu: Gekkan!! As usual, the book provides a lot of useful information for a hardcore fans like me. And the mook [magazine book] next volume 4. *faints* The bonus of this mook is a DVD. The publishers in Japan really know how to kill their customers. I got a CD from Bikei Catalogue volume 4: Guide to the Future Actors and now I have DVD from "next". *massive sweatdrops* If they didn't give us those bonuses, the price of the magazines wouldn't be that expensive, right? The CDs which are sent from Jakarta are:
~ Kamen Rider 555 Battle and Talk Show
~ Kamen Rider Blade episode 10-24
~ Kamen Rider Ryuki Special: 13 Riders 2nd ending
~ Chou Seishin Gransazers episode 22-27
~ Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon episode 25-39
~ Tokusou Sentai Dekaranger episode 7-21
~ Ninpuu Sentai Hurricaneger vs Gaoranger
~ Ninpuu Sentai Hurricaneger The Movie
~ Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon All Character Singles
~ Super Heroines Perfect Collection
~ Ultraman Cosmos Song Collection
So far, I have only watched "Ninpuu Sentai Hurricaneger vs Gaoranger", "Ninpuu Sentai Hurricaneger The Movie", and "Kamen Rider Blade" up to episode 18. Mucchan is already on the show... ^0^ ...and I got a chance to watch him in the shower on episode 17. He is topless and I am breathless. *massive sweatdrops* It is hard to believe that Mucchan is five years younger than I am. *nosebleeds*

And I can't stop myself from collecting Mucchan's pictures. After buying Kamen Rider Blade Official Photobook: CATEGORY A, I am thinking of buying the mooks which have his pictures. I have already got his pictures from Hero Vision volume 14 and I am thinking of buying "Hero Vision" volume 15. Duh, have to spend more money from now on. Last year I decided to spend money on Handa Kento related stuffs [and I still spend a lot of money on the stuffs] and this year I spend money on Mucchan and Yoshida Yuichi's related stuffs. What a waste of money... ^^;;;

Speaking about money, I think I am going to waste more and more money on stuffs. Books, CDs, DVDs, and novels. I have to work harder and harder from now on.

I am writing a new story in a world of illusions at 05:17 p.m.

<< Friday, June 4, 2004 >>

BGM: Justifaiz - ISSA [Kamen Rider 555 OP Song]

Today's entry is dedicated to someone precious and special in my life. I also made the same entry last year... he he he, I am just too obsessed over this person. Since he is so precious and special for me, I can't stop myself from typing this entry. Perhaps this entry is meaningless for a lot of persons but this entry means a lot for me.

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY
HANDA KENTO

I can wish nothing for this guy but happiness and a successful life. I wish he will have a greater career as an actor... will be known by people outside Japan as a grown-up and talented actor and not as Inui Takumi. I wish he can find happiness in every aspect of his life, from the simple one to the complicated one. For someone like me, Handa Kento is Handa Kento... I also want to thank this guy for the inspirations he have been given to me. I realized that this young guy has already given me so many precious inspirations in my life. He has also 'guided' me through the hard times in my life. Knowing this guy is one of the most precious chance I have ever got in this life. To be honest, I want to know more about him... want to get closer to him and know every aspect of his life.

I am writing a new story in a world of illusions at 07:48 p.m.

<< Sunday, May 30, 2004 >>

BGM: I and I - Sakamoto Maaya

Thank God I have already finished almost all of my jobs yesterday. If I didn't finish the vouchers inputting process yesterday, I have to go to the office today to input the remaining vouchers... ^^;;; ...I have no other choice since I have to finish the vouchers inputting process before June 5th and give the detailed sparepart sales data to the sparepart department or they will strangle me at the first place. I guess I still have to work over time in the upcoming days since some of the vouchers haven't been sent from the branch offices and they have to be inputted before the deadline date. There is no problem with the main dealers' vouchers since the vouchers are regularly delivered to the accounting department. The only problem we have now is the vouchers from the branch offices. Sometimes the vouchers arrive pretty late and we have to call the branch offices to force them to send the vouchers before the deadline date.

I think I am going to buy a lot of comics next month. *massive sweatdrops* I have already read the comic release schedules and I think I am going to be really bankrupt next month... perhaps I really have to say goodbye to my 'beloved' money. Damn, why I have to be so consumptive with books? Why can't I stop myself from buying books? Thank God I buy no [local] magazine at this moment. I can't imagine what would happen if I buy [local] magazines now... *massive sweatdrops* ...perhaps I won't have any cent to save in my bank account. He he he, have to thank my cousin because he is the one who buys magazines now. All I have to do now is go to his place and read the magazines there.

Watched Ultraman Cosmos The Movie 2: The Blue Planet last week. The film is pretty interesting and I can't stop listening to the theme song, Project DMM's Ultraman Cosmos ~kimi ni dekiru nani ka~, now. Well, that song is not a new song. Project DMM's "Ultraman Cosmos ~ kimi ni dekiru nani ka~" is also used in Ultraman Cosmos The Movie: First Contact back in 2001. "First Contact" itself is the prequel of the TV series where we can see the first meeting between Haruno Musashi and Ultraman Cosmos when Musashi was still a kid. The timeline of "First Contact" is eight years before the TV series. Cosmos' enemy in "First Contact" is Baltan-seijin, the most popular alien in Ultraman series. Baltan-seijin appeared for the first time in the first Ultraman series. This alien also appeared on several Ultraman series years after its' first apperance. After watching the second movie of Ultraman Cosmos, I immediately want to buy the Chouzenshuu of this series... *cries* ...why do I have to be so consumptive, for God's sake? Although the Chouzenshuu has summaries of the episodes of the TV series [65 episodes] plus summaries of the movies [three movies], I am not supposed to buy that Chouzenshuu. For God's sake, I am not even a big fan of this series. I have only watched some episodes of this series and decided not to continue watching the remaining episodes of it. Why do I have the desire to buy the Chouzenshuu now? *bangs his head against the keyboard*

I think I am going to buy Kamen Rider Blade's photobook, Category A. I just can't control my desire to buy this book. *flashes death stares at Houjou Takahiro and Takezai Terunosuke* Both of you are the reason why I want to buy this photobook. It is almost impossible for me to use my salary since I am going to use my salary to buy some DVDs. "Category A" is definetely published at the WRONG TIME. Well, at least I have no intention of buying the magazine books which have pictures of both Houjou Takahiro and Takezai Terunosuke. "Category A" is more than enough [at least for now]... I can only hope there are people who kind enough to scan their pictures and put the scans on the Net for me. *gets bricked* XDD

The weather is so fucking hot these days. My body is full of sweat... duh, I really wish I had ten fans around me. I am nearly dying because of the heat. Going to a swimming pool sounds interesting... ^^;;; ...ha ha ha, suddenly I want to go to a swimming pool now.

I am writing a new story in a world of illusions at 03:25 p.m.

<< Friday, May 28, 2004 >>

BGM: MeiQ!? - Meikyuu - MAKE YOU - - Kishimoto Hayami [Tantei Gakuen Q OP Song]

A didn't come to the office today and I was the only guy inside the sacred room of accounting and billing department. Honestly, it wasn't a big deal for me since I get along pretty well with the girls but I felt very lonely without him. No one teased me [yeah, I love being teased by A - this sounds crazy, ne?] and I had no chance to tease anyone either. ^^;;; I just love the times when I have the chance to tease A with my words. Since A didn't come today, I ate my lunch together with the girls. Went down to the kitchen to get my lunch back and went back to the room to eat my lunch... what a miserable day. I just missed A so much. I have already SMS-ed him but there is still no response from him. I wonder what has happened to that naughty guy.

Surprisingly, E-san SMS-ed me two days ago just to ask whether I was doing fine or not. I was surprised to know he still remembers me. I didn't expect him to send me SMS-es although he had already known my cellphone number [I did send him SMS-es weeks ago]. He he he, I was very glad when I read his SMS-es. We only talked about some general things like outbound [seems like outbound is our favorite topic] and our opinions on some matters. E-san told me that he is chosen to join a special outbound which is held for supervisor level trainings and he feels very happy because of it. He also told me that he is going to be a trainer for the upcoming outbound for new journalists at the most popular newspaper in Indonesia... ha ha ha, he sure has a lot of interesting activities, ne? E-san is full with energy and he always wants to recharge himself with those interesting activities. E-san taught me the simple way to recharge myself last night... yes, he did send me SMS-es [again] last night. Well, sometimes E-san is just too unpredictable. I expect him to reply my SMS-es everytime I send him SMS-es but he rarely replied them... this week, he was the one who sent SMS-es first. Well, I think I can't expect anything special from him... ^^;;; ...that is the best option for me.

The cash vouchers from one of our branch offices had been delivered to our office today and I used almost all of my office hours to check and input the data. I am not done with the vouchers yet... will have to check and input the data again tomorrow. Perhaps I will use all of my office hours tomorrow to input the data from the cash vouchers. If only the branch office had ordered the vouchers before they were out of vouchers, I didn't have to use almost all of my office hours just to check and input the data... but I have to finish this data inputting activity before I do my monthly job, preparing the PPN form for the main dealer. When I am preparing the PPN form for the main dealer, the other staffs will prepare the PPN forms for the branch offices and they need the data from the vouchers since some of the important data can only be found on the vouchers. That is the reason why I have to finish the data inputting activity before June 5th. >_<;;; The newest vouchers I have now are the vouchers from May 12th - May 19th... argh, I still have to deal with the vouchers dated May 21st - May 31st.

I am writing a new story in a world of illusions at 08:33 p.m.

<< Sunday, May 23, 2004 >>

BGM: Yuragu Koto Nai Ai - Tamura Naomi [Get Backers OP Song #1]

Downloaded three songs this week. All of them are the OP and ED songs of Get Backers. Yeah, I am obsessed over the OP and ED songs of this series. There is an exception, I think. I don't think I am going to like the 4th ED song. Perhaps I have to listen to it for times before I can fall in love with it but at this moment, I still don't like it... at all. That song is not my type. ^^;;; The songs I have downloaded are:
~ Yuragu Koto Nai Ai by Tamura Naomi [downloaded on Saturday, May 22nd]
~ Barairo no Sekai by PIERROT [downloaded on Thursday, May 20th]
~ Mr. deja vu by naja [downloaded on Thursday, May 20th]
I had already downloaded Otoha's Ichibyou no Refrain and BON BON BLANCO's Namida no Hurricane last year so I didn't have to download both songs anymore. XDD

Hey, I am in the mood for "Get Backers" now... actually, I am crazy over it right now and this time I am crazier than before. I have been liking this series since last year but this time I become crazier and crazier. I am thinking of buying the character book of this series... he he he, have to save the money first because I don't have much money at this moment. I still have to buy two DVDs, one magazine book [damn it, why the publisher decided to publish this edition when I have no money to buy it?], two Chouzenshuus [well, perhaps I can delete one of them from the shopping list but I want that book too], and two photobooks [yeah, blame it on Houjou Takahiro and Takezai Terunosuke - I just can't blame the beautiful girls]. *curses himself for being so consumptive* I am glad I have no obsession for the guys on Chou Seishin Gransazers. This is weird... why do I want to buy the photobook of Bishoujosenshi Sailor Moon as well as Category A? *massive sweatdrops* I have never bought a photobook which only has girls inside it. *thinks* I think I forget something... OMG, I still have to buy Kamen Rider Blade Chouzenshuu: Joukan. I know Shogakukan is going to publish this book but I don't know the exact date. Perhaps Shogakukan will publish it on July or August, just like the previous years.

Just finished watching "Get Backers" episode 39... this episode is SO DAMN HILARIOUS!! Ginji gets hospitalized because he fell down from a building. The reason why he fell down from that building... *bursts out laughing* ...he was chasing after his midnight snack, onigiri, but he ended up falling from the building and gets hospitalized for a month. His friends came to the hospital to visit him but the events happened next were out of his prediction. Ban and Shidou were asked by the nurses to get their love letters [from their patients] back from their strict [and scary] head nurse but both of them failed. Hevn tried to seduce a handsome doctor but unfortunately the doctor is married. Himiko and Ginji got misunderstood by three persons. Kazuki ended up wearing a nurse uniform and had to patrol around the hospital because the head nurse misunderstood him as a trainee at the hospital [since a lot of patients asked Kazuki to help them with stuffs]. Juubei was going to have CT scan because the doctor said his brain was abnormal. *bursts out laughing* Ginji's room was in chaos because of Ban, Kazuki, Shidou, Juubei, Himiko, and Emishi [who came later to visit Ginji]. Those six persons even threw Ginji out of the window when they fought against each other. Ginji ended up landing/hanging on the electric wires. ^^;;; The craziness continued when Akabane came to visit Ginji... I can't imagine a cold-blooded killer like Akabane came to hospital and brought a basket of fruits with him. It is very funny to see Akabane with that basket. Episode 39 is the funniest episode of "Get Backers" I have ever watched.

This week's question... what are the differences between Common Blank and Proper Blank? XDDD Common Blank and Proper Blank are the phrases used in "Kamen Rider Blade" and both phrases stand for an 'empty'/'unused' card. The one who had use Common Blank is Kamen Rider Leangle [the fourth Kamen Rider in the series]. He used Common Blank to seal Centipede Undead, the Undead which had been sealed by Kamen Rider Chalice inside the card "Heart Ten" [Shuffle Centipede]. Before he sealed Centipede Undead using his Common Blank, he released it using his card, "Clover Ten" [Remote Tapir], which allows him to release and control [the released] Undead. Since both Centipede Undead and Tapir Undead are categorized as Category 10, Kamen Rider Leangle has owned two "Category 10" cards now. His original "Category 10" is called "Category 10" and the second "Category 10" is called Wild 10. Seems like the original "Category 10" is sealed using a Proper Blank while "Wild 10" is sealed using a Common Blank. If this theory is right, Common Blank is a card used by Kamen Rider Leangle to seal others' Undeads which have been released by him.

I am writing a new story in a world of illusions at 04:15 p.m.

<< Saturday, May 22, 2004 >>

BGM: Barairo no Sekai - PIERROT [Get Backers OP Song #2]

I always feel sleepy these days. *massive sweatdrops* I feel sleepy at the office... I feel sleepy at home... I feel sleepy EVERYWHERE!! This is weird... well, at least for me. I think I have enough sleep every night but I always wake up in the morning with a thought, "Hey, I am so *fucking* sleepy now. I don't think I have enough sleep last night and I want to sleep for two or three more hours". I don't know what will happen if I consumed a sleeping pill. Perhaps I would sleep for one whole day, huh? Need no drink and need no food. Oh yes, and I don't have to think about the annoying things I have in my life. ^^;;;

Went home earlier from the office today. I decided not to work over time today... ^^;;; ...actually, I had already realized that I have to finish the tax-related-jobs as soon as possible but I was just too lazy to do those jobs this afternoon. Instead of sitting in front of the computer and finishing the jobs, I went home and watched Get Backers episode 35 and 36. I still have 13 episodes to go now. To be honest, I don't know when I will be able to watch the remaining episodes.

Accompanied my brother to the dentist after having our dinner and I nearly fell asleep at the dentist. *massive sweatdrops* Thank God I didn't fall asleep there. Before we went to the nearest dentist from our house, we had already went to another dentist but the dentist hasn't come yet and we had to queue for a very long time because there were nine people came before us and they were all waiting for the dentist. *snaps fingers* Since both of us didn't want to wait anymore [actually, my brother is the one who didn't want to wait], we decided to go to the nearest dentist from our house.

I want to send SMS-es to E-san but I know he won't reply my SMS-es... well, perhaps sending him SMS-es is not a good idea but I really want to talk to him about a lot of things. For me, sending SMS-es is the most effective way to talk to him... sending him e-mails is less effective although I have already known his e-mail address. *feels very confused*

I am writing a new story in a world of illusions at 08:45 p.m.

<< Thursday, May 20, 2004 >>

BGM: Dan Dan Kokoro Hikareteku - Field of View

I have just finished watching Get Backers episode 29-34 a few minutes ago. As usual, the episodes are interesting. I like the episodes where Ban and Ginji try to retrieve the hands of Venus de Milo which are found after missing for thousand years. They meet Miroku Natsuhiko [seiyuu: Seki Tomokazu] and Miroku Yukihiko [seiyuu: Kimura Akiko - I hope I typed the right name here] on this mission. They also have another transaction with Clayman [seiyuu: Ogata Megumi] - one of their former clients - who asked them to retrive the hands of Venus de Milo. Get Backer's mission to retrieve the hands of Venus de Milo can be watched on episode 29-33. Wow, we have Ogata Megumi and Seki Tomokazu on this chapter... I don't think I have ever heard about Kimura Akiko before but her role as Miroku Yukihiko is kind of promising. Somehow she reminds me of Saiga Mitsuki. Nope, her voice doesn't remind me of Saiga Mitsuki's voice. Her role as Yukihiko reminds me of Saiga Mitsuki because Saiga Mitsuki often gets role as guys.
We also have Fujiwara Keiji [I hope I translated his name right] as Kudou Yamato on episode 34. I am not a big fan of his voice but I think his voice is great. Still, my favorite seiyuu is Morikubo Shotarou-san. His voices as Ginji sound marvelous. ^^

I am in the mood to listen to old love songs... *massive sweatdrops* ...listened to PJ & Duncan's Eternal Love last night and suddenly I realized those two looked very gay everytime they were together. Later, they were known as Ant & Dec and their last album was The Cult of Ant & Dec, released on 1997 [if I remember it right]. It's been so long since I listened to their songs for the last time. I did see them on World Idol weeks ago and I think they were the hosts of that program... yay, they are still together now? That really proves that they are... *decides not to continue* ...well, perhaps my thought is right. I am glad for both of them, of course.

Just realized one thing... "Dan Dan Kokoro Hikareteku" is sung by two groups, Zard and Field of View. I have no idea about the first group who popularized this song, though. All I know is the fact that Field of View is no more now. Their vocalist, U-ya Asaoka, sings the opening song of Chou Seishin Gransazers now.

I am writing a new story in a world of illusions at 04:47 p.m.

<< Wednesday, May 19, 2004 >>

BGM: inner universe - Origa [Ghost In The Shell: Stand Alone Complex OP Song]

Went to Kantor Pemeriksaan dan Penyidikan Pajak to deliver data today. The people at Kantor Pemeriksaan dan Penyidikan Pajak sent us a letter lask week and asked us to give them the data of CV. X [name can't be written here], one of our branch dealers. They gave us one week to prepare all the data but we didn't give them all the data they want. *massive sweatdrops* Naughty, I know it, but we just can't give them the whole data. Some of the informations aren't for public consumption. Thing like the chart of accounts can't be easily given to them. The chart of accounts is one of the private things in our company and outsiders aren't permitted to know it. Well, this is the company's policy, not my policy. I have no policy there.
Oh yes, I was amazed when I knew our company has six charts of accounts. One for the main dealer [our office] and five for the branch dealers. *massive sweatdrops* I have no idea how to remember the accounts for each branch. I only know the accounts which are used at the main dealer because I always do the data inputting process for the main dealer.

For me, Kantor Pemeriksaan dan Penyidikan Pajak is as scary as a haunted house... *runs away* ...kowaii yo!! If I weren't the chief of the tax department, I would GLADLY refuse to go to that scary office at the first place. Damn it, tax auditing is so annoying... we have to deliver data to either Kantor Pemeriksaan dan Penyidikan Pajak or Kantor Pelayanan Pajak [KPP]. People say KPP is much better than Kantor Pemeriksaan dan Penyidikan Pajak when it comes to tax auditing. Oh my God, my office are dealing with the Kantor Pemeriksaan dan Penyidikan Pajak now!! *faints*

Let's forget that 'dark side of my life'. Enough with the job-related-talks. On the brighter side, the package from Ami-chan has been delivered safe and sound to my house today. The contents of the package are my husband's [you know this guy, ne? XDD]pictures from TV Guide; TV Life; and TV Station, and LoTR: The Fellowship of The Ring original VCD. Ami-chan, thanks a lot for the package. *hugs* I like my husband's pictures very very much... never thought you would send me his pictures [damn, he looks so handsome on those pictures]. God, I LOVE MY HUSBAND VERY VERY MUCH!! *turns crazy* And I know I am going to poison myself with LoTR... yay, I don't know when I will have the time to watch it but I am positive I am going to be obsessed over it. XDDD

Oh yes, I had already asked someone to send the birthday card today. I don't know whether she has sent it or not but I hope the recipient of the card will like it. ^_______^

I am writing a new story in a world of illusions at 08:32 p.m.

<< Monday, May 17, 2004 >>

BGM: Sacrifice - ALI Project

Wanted to work over time [as usual] today but I cancelled that plan because I have a terrible headache for a whole day. -_-;;; Duh, I still have so many jobs to do but I just couldn't stand the pain I feel inside my pathetic head. My brother picked me up and I asked him to accompany me to the book store. Bought Get Backers volume 6 there... Indonesian version, of course.

Watched some games of Thomas Cup last night on TV. I am not a big fan of badminton but I was very excited when I watched the games last night. Perhaps some of you have already known the reason... yup, I was very excited because of the good looking guys. *bursts out laughing* I just couldn't take my eyes off Lin Dan and Bao Chun Lai. Both guys are good looking... hey, that reason is more than enough to explain everything, right? I nearly drooled when I saw Lin Dan topless after he defeated Peter Gade Christensen on the first single game. His body... *drools* ...oh my God, his body is hot!! Muscles are here and there... muscles are everywhere. ^^;;; I am trying my best not to imagine what will happen if I touch Lin Dan's chest [and his whole body]. *head is full of dirty thoughts* Must be very interesting, ne? Naughty me... XDDD
And Bao Chun Lai... God, he looks so DAMN cute. He and Lin Dan will make a perfect yaoi couple!! *runs before everybody starts bricking him* I am saying the truth here. I never make a joke [especially lame joke] everytime I think of a yaoi couple. Lin Dan x Bao Chun Lai... hey, that couple sounds very cute. Lin Dan looks so seme and Bao Chun Lai looks very uke... perfect combination, right? Now I have to restrain myself from imagining some dirty yaoi scenes between those two. Hugging... smooching... OK, I have to stop my words here or all of you will read a hardcore yaoi fanfic the next minute.

Okay, let's talk about the serious topic. I am impressed... very very impressed with the way Lin Dan played against Peter Gade Christensen last night. That 'young general on the courtyard' really motivates me to fight until the last second although I have no reason to fight anymore. That is a good point, I think.

Have to prepare a birthday card for someone... he he he, I hope that person will feel happy when he gets the card.

I am writing a new story in a world of illusions at 08:22 p.m.

<< Sunday, May 16, 2004 >>

BGM: Round Zero ~BLADE BRAVE~ - Aikawa Nanase [Kamen Rider Blade OP Song]

Here I am... after disappearing for more than two months, finally I am updating this blog again. Not a big deal, I think. I rarely wrote in English during the hiatus session [I didn't announce it, right? - honestly, I decided to go into the hiatus mode in an instant] and I think my ability to write in English has significantly decreased. ^^;;; Ha ha ha, I have to improve it now or I will never be able to write in English anymore. Updating this blog regularly is the only way for me to improve my poor English.

A lot of things have happened during the hiatus session... almost all of them aren't fascinating enough for me to tell. Perhaps the most interesting event I had during the hiatus session was the outbound. I want to join the same activity next time... ^^;;; ...ha ha ha, my colleagues will definetely kick my ass if they hear my words. I insisted to them I would never enjoy my days there but I was wrong. Totally wrong, of course. I met an interesting guy there - well, here comes another tedious topic - and I think I have some kind of developed feeling for him. Of course, I won't say I am in love with this guy. At least I still have to think about a lot of things before I can decide whether I am in love with this guy or not. I am not in rush with this matter. I don't want to make any mistake now because I know I have made so many mistakes when I tried to get closer to someone weeks ago. I know I am not a wise guy but I have learned something from my past experiences and I don't want to repeat the same mistake all over again.

And I am depressed... very very depressed with my jobs at the office. I am not complaining anything here. I just feel like... well, I just feel like I can't finish those jobs although I have tried my best to finish them. I work over time almost everyday but seems like the jobs are getting more and more complicated. Sometimes I just have no idea how to finish those jobs. Pathetic, huh? ^^;;; Well, perhaps I should skip this part before I get more and more depressed because of the job-related-thingie.

I am going to be broke these days. *massive sweatdrops* I have already seen some pictures from Kamen Rider Blade's photobook, Category A, and I want that book badly!! I had already said I wasn't going to buy any photobook related to "Kamen Rider Blade" but I changed my mind in an instant right after seeing the pictures. I am setting my eyes on Houjou Takahiro and Takezai Terunosuke... ha ha ha, Houjou-kun is five years younger than I am and I find him cute and interesting. Maybe I am out of my mind but I consider him as an interesting guy. And Takeppi... *bursts out laughing* ...very very cute and loveable. The way he speaks [as Shirai Kotarou] really reminds me of Kikuchi Keitaro. Kotarou is cuter than Keitaro, though. You know what, I still can't decide whether I will buy "Category A" or not but I think the probability of buying it is bigger than not buying it. *sighs* This is not a good new for my wallet, of course. Duh, I still have to buy Kamen Rider 555 Chouzenshuu: Gekkan and I also want to have Bakuryuu Sentai Abaranger Chouzenshuu and the photobook of Bishoujosenshi Sailor Moon. *cries* This is crazy... I am supposed to save my money but I just can't save any cent from my salary because of those books. Anyone wants to donate me some money? *gets bricked*

God, I want to send some SMS-es to E-san but I am not sure this person will reply my SMS-es... T______T ...what should I do?

I am writing a new story in a world of illusions at 04:59 p.m.